Lola says “plause” instead of pause. “You need to plause it so I don’t miss anything.” And then, if we forget to plause it, she tells us to “unwind” it. Cutie!
Lately, I’ve been in desperate need of a magic plause button. My kids are the cutest ever. I know, everyone thinks THEIR baby is the cutest one. But in Corbin’s case, I’m pretty sure he really IS the cutest. Ever. He’s just so damn sweet! I wish I wrote well enough to put the charm into words. He flops around and smiles with his tongue half sticking out and when he giggles it becomes perfectly clear- Cutest. Ever.
And Lola is getting more freckles every day. And being such a big girl. But in the new, still-little kind of way. She can use the bathroom and dress herself and all those things that make life a little easier. But it’s all still new and exciting and adorable. She’s learning things and exercising her independence, but still wants and needs her mommy. She makes me so proud when she works on a new skill. And she’s HYSTERICAL! She says so many funny things (that I want to remember forever but then forget by an hour later.) And really, if you ever saw her run, you’d have a heartwarming happy thought to treasure.
There are challenges for sure. Lola’s a pretty strong willed kid, which can be exasperating, but I’ve been learning and am getting better at managing it. And having an infant and a 3 yr old can be REALLY exhausting sometimes. There is nary a moment when we’re together that one of them isn’t needing my express attention. Corbin can be a little on the fussy side. Blah blah blah all the issues you’d expect with two little ones.
People tell me CONSTANTLY that it gets “so much better” when your kids are a little older and really independent. Maybe that’s one of those universal lies that people perpetuate because it makes them feel good. Or maybe it’s just really the truth. I can see that things are sure a little easier in some ways when your kids are more like school-aged. I’m sure there’s more freedom, more adult time, a little less physical exhaustion. I am kind of looking forward to seeing Lola go to school and make friends and etc and so forth.
But then, a happy baby who smiles his damn face off just because I give him a squeeze? With that little tongue sticking half out? Heaven. I think I’d maybe wait like one more month. Just so the weather is really at its best, and Corbin is sitting longer and more confidently and maybe starting to crawl and eat some solids. But by then, I just REALLY REALLY want a pause button. I want to stay here for a good long time. I’ll hit play eventually, and I’m sure I’ll enjoy the next phase too. But this. This I want to dwell on. I want plenty of time to get sick of it. Instead of feeling like it’s rushing away from me and I can’t do anything about it. Because I would love to live in this time for a good long while.
P.S.- Rummage Sale-ing fun continues and boy did we hit the jackpot last weekend. The best of which was a collection of My Little Pony Ponyville Ponies, with a little house and some accessories. Problem: they’re all discontinued and I’m having trouble finding more for her set. You guys have no idea. We’re so obsessed with these things that we are seriously almost unable to control our impulses to spend like a hundred bucks trying to buy the discontinued stuff online for COMPLETELY unreasonable prices. So…if anyone knows where to get one besides ebay where they’re too expensive OR if anyone’s kids have outgrown their little 2-inch Ponyville ponies and affiliated playsets- I would love to buy them. 🙂